Haunting Memories...

I guess its not that easy to forget a person.. I've tried to keep myself occupied with a hectic schedule.. But still, occationally I'll think of her.. and especially just finished watching I guess I guess I guess guess guess, one of the gal looks so much like her.. Its bringing back memories.. and bringing me to sadness once more.. How long more will it take to forget?.. I wonder.. If anyone has a memory eraser, Pls contact me ASAP.. thank you..

Just too bad...

Well, alls gone between U and me I guess.. 我已伸出手， 但是你不接受。。Nothing is said, nothing need to be said... So be it.. Life goes on.. U go ur way, I go mine.. U dun like to talk, prefer to hide behind a computer, well.. I'm fine with that.. Wish u all the best then...

Wish that never came through...

Fate can be cruel.. It just happened too many times.. Things just doesn't goes the way it should be.. A meeting that almost came through after weeks of waiting, dashed by an email.. Choose to believe rather than doubt.. I feel sadness even though we aren't that close yet.. Why?.. Will there be another chance, or all hopes are gone? Have I fallen too many times that I can't stand up again? or am I afraid to stand up? Will this period of hopelessness be over soon? I certainly hope so.. Someone please shed some light to me, and tell me what I should do.. Or what I shouldn't.. Should I just walk away? Or wait for the moment to come... If I have a time machine, I would go back to the time when we just met... We seems to be more talkative then.. and then for some reasons, you stopped.. I still have no idea what happened.. I asked.. but did not get your answer.. New sem, you started talking again.. but not as much as usual.. I remained the same but I wanted things to improve.. Issit something too much of me to ask for? This disillusion has certainly drained me of my energy to do anything and ignored everything.. Well, as I said, next time then…. I hope…

Finally a short break

Kaboom!.. finally a short break from all the hardware and software debugging for EE2001.. this has definitly drained me to the max.. can u imagine everyday going to lab for just this module?.. even on my freeday?... and all is not over yet.. there is still PCB(not hokkien vulgarity hor..) design to go... and building the actual working system out!.. time for my years of gundam model making to come into use! haha..

A joyful event to share.. My cousin just had her wedding last weekend. so envy of her and my new cousin in law.. they are so lovely.. they even edit and composed an canto song.. not sure wat is the original, but is sounded so nice and touching when they played it during the wedding dinner.. How I wish I have the chance to do so in the future.. My cousins and I were all dress up in suits , taken a pic together and we all look cool lah!.. think my cousin is dam impress for all of us haha... Wonder when is the next occation that I'll be able to wear a suit... hope the suit can still fit my size by then haha.. I was super lucky on my cousin wedding day lah!.. play mahjong, win like siao... win until my cousins all scared of me le.. told them to play small but they insisted on playing big... ok lor.. then pay me more le lor haha...
To my cousin.. Wish u all the best, faster have a baby so that everyone, including Rui en can play with haha...

Can't wait for Friday to play badminton and tennis...
Can't wait to go eat sushi...
Can't wait to go KBox one Wed...
Can't wait....

Where are my grp mates?

Its 10 am in the morning, I'm in lab.. ALONE!!!!... why is NW? Where is Rome Rome?.. thought meeting at 9am?.... faint.... To all people reading this pls help me find them!!! they are missing!.. their particular cannot be disclosed to safe guard their identity.. haha.. so wth... how to find? dun know... u know means u know lor, dun know means dun know lor...
Think I'm going crazy with all the EE2001 stuff... back to typing out the Minutes...

Perhaps perhaps perhaps...

Perhaps I should have done more when I was given a chance...
Perhaps I shouldn't had hesitated...
Perhaps I should be frank...
Perhaps I should be more responsive...
Perhaps I should have call instead of always MSNing...
Perhaps I knew all along...
Perhaps I should have say...
Perhaps...

Do I have a "I will be willing to help u do survey" look?

Why issit that all of the sudden, all those surveyors that I always manage to siam, suddenly all come and tap my shoulder and ask me to help them do survey?.. Issit something I did ,wear or I got some attract surveyor aura?... One of the surveyor even gave the excuse that she is asking me to help her do survey at one corner such that she can sit down and relax abit.. Wah Lao!.. want to chao keng use me ah.. win liao lor... But since she call me cute, I shall let her off haha... and pls do not tap my shoulder... very sensitive one.. I might be playing mahjong any time one lor.. so Do Not Touch My Shoulder! unless of course u r excused. haha...

EE2001 lab xiong sia..

Its just the 3rd lab for EE2001 and my grp can start feeling the hectic weeks ahead already... We still need to implement the systems, both hardware and software by the next 2 weeks.. More pressure from other grps that actually had been ahead of schedule and doing the things we are suppose to do next week.. pressure pressure...
Anyway to the lady who was knocking at the door of the lab and scolding us for not opening the door for her, Shut up can!?.. If u are authorised to enter, u can come in, if u are not, why the hell should we open the door for u? if u come in rob us, threaten us how?.. Use ur pig brain can anot?

It has been an emotional week for me....

For the past 7-8 days, I've haven't really gotten a nice good sleep.. My mind hasn't really had a nice rest.. Constantly thinking about somethings and someone.. and forever worrying about my final jap test on sunday.. Hasn't really been able to concentrate at all.. Its just so many things that need to be settled and so much thoughts in my mind. Kinda need a breather.. and yes I did took it yesterday.. went comex with quinn, got my stuffs and had a nice game of pool.. though I keep hitting the black ball in most of the time,I still lost the overall.. however it was able to bring my mood up, so its alright haha.. Listening to "Secret"'s OST now.. its kinda nice, light, slowly bringing out the sentimental part of me.. its definitely true that music can change the emotions of people to a certain extend.. I'm definitely a musical person.. never an opera.. Its amazing how these non-living objects like the piano and violin can do such great wonders under a person's influence, bring emotions to others and bringing them along to another world, seculated from reality..
Listening to them, pictures of favourite moments are appearing in my mind.. Well hope I'll straighten all my thoughts soon and buck up for the future I will be facing no matter how rough the path is going to be..

The end of Japanese learning journey. Issit the end or things are just getting started?..

Today marks the end of Japanese studies for me.. It may just seem to be a learning process to most people but it meant more to me. It means no more waking up early on sunday morning for lessons, no more rushing for getting my jap homework done and also no more tests for me. Conversely, it also meant no more chancing of meeting my classmates of more then 8 months. We all progress from Intermediate 1 to 4 and some of them I had known since Elementary one. Did I tell anyone that my class has 12 gals and 3 guys only? haha.. It has been enjoyable having them as my classmates, the lames jokes, the crazy laughters and the forever kawaii Asako Maeda Sensei. Its regretable that I didn't get to know most of them and not having their MSN. How I wish I can relive the moments once more.. Most of them will be proceeding on to pre advance course. Wish them all the best.. がんばってましょう.. I'll be getting the notes from Cheryl thou haha.. No need to pay sch fees still can study mah haha...
To my ex jap classmates (eventhough they might not see this)Thanks for making the learning process such an enjoyable and unforgetable one. If there is a chance, I'll be happy to meet u all once more :)