Wish that never came through...

Fate can be cruel.. It just happened too many times.. Things just doesn't goes the way it should be.. A meeting that almost came through after weeks of waiting, dashed by an email.. Choose to believe rather than doubt.. I feel sadness even though we aren't that close yet.. Why?.. Will there be another chance, or all hopes are gone? Have I fallen too many times that I can't stand up again? or am I afraid to stand up? Will this period of hopelessness be over soon? I certainly hope so.. Someone please shed some light to me, and tell me what I should do.. Or what I shouldn't.. Should I just walk away? Or wait for the moment to come... If I have a time machine, I would go back to the time when we just met... We seems to be more talkative then.. and then for some reasons, you stopped.. I still have no idea what happened.. I asked.. but did not get your answer.. New sem, you started talking again.. but not as much as usual.. I remained the same but I wanted things to improve.. Issit something too much of me to ask for? This disillusion has certainly drained me of my energy to do anything and ignored everything.. Well, as I said, next time then…. I hope…